Chapter 2

Don’t kiss and tell

What started with a soft kiss turned into something so amazing I never expected. We were kissing each other for a while when he placed his hand on my waist. An actual electric current flew inside of me. That day I realized what my biggest weakness was. My waist. I took a long deep breath which made him put his other hand on my waist as well. Oh hell. Current. Sensations. I am going to die here. He then smiled at me in that most mischievous way possible to let me know we are just getting started. He then softly kissed my neck. My second weakness. I could never explain the kind of feelings that rushed inside of me at that very moment. 

We promised earlier not to take this to another level because we made dinner plans with his friends at 6 pm. It was 5.30 pm, our clothes were on the floor, lying somewhere between the door and the bed and we were rolled into each other under the blanket. I think promises are made so that we can just break them afterwards! 

“I love you” I whispered while placing both of my hands on his face. 

“I love you too” he replied. 

We kissed harder then. I felt his tongue swirling around on my lips. I took a moment to realize and now our tongues were fighting together in the most romantic way possible. Ahh, the French kiss he told me about. That was the first time I said the “love phrase” to him. He used to say that to me all the time on the calls. But I never replied him back. It wasn’t because I didn’t feel the same. Obviously, I did. But I just wanted to hold his face and look him in the eye while saying those beautiful words so that we can reassure each other afterwards. By doing something. And by something, I mean some beautiful, romantic things. Ah, I am a woman, I don’t kiss and tell! 

“You smell so great” he said while I was leaning over him. Well of course I smelled great. I used the scented shower gel that day, my cherry blossom body mist, shea butter body butter and if that wasn’t enough, my vanilla body oil in the end. I myself would have fallen in love with me with all that. See, I planned this very smartly. I must say, I am a genius. 

“I didn’t know you would be so wild” he laughed. 

“Well me neither” I replied while still kissing him. 

We were making out when his phone rang. “Hope you guys are ready. We have to leave in 10 minutes for dinner” his friend said. Ready? We looked around us and then to each other. We laughed. It took both of us by surprise to see how comfortable we got with each other that quickly. I wasn’t in a mood to leave. I jut wanted to lie there, wrapped around in his arms under the blanket. 

“Can’t we just order our food here?” I asked while hugging him “I don’t want to go. I am feeling good here.” 

“Well I don’t want to either. But we made plans with them.” 

“Ugh. I guess you are right.” I hate it when he is right. 

We got up and he handed me one of his hoddie that he bought for me. It was too big for me. I handed it back to him and wore the hoodie that he was wearing earlier. It was better. Still too big for me, but it smelled like him. Perfect. We got dressed and just when I went in front of the mirror to apply my lip balm, I shouted. 

“You promised you would not bite!” I looked at him with my “scary” eyes. 

“Oh, I swear I didn’t” he regretted. 

“Really? Does it look like your “I didn’t bite” kind of scar” I asked him madly while showing the side of my neck. 

He laughed. I still had my scary face on. 

“I am sorry baby; I won’t do it again. It happened by mistake” he apologized. 

I couldn’t stay mad. Obviously. He had his puppy eyes on. Honestly, I was happy inside but I was just scared to have any marks when I had to wear those wedding dresses next week. He kissed me while apologizing. That’s not fair. How could I stay mad then? On the above of that, he took out the gift he bought for me. Wait a minute, I got kisses and gifts? Hell, I am happy. I will do the kalesh later. I took the box, opened it to see the cutest panda lamp inside. What would happen if you gave a new toy to a baby? Same thing as happening to me well. In the end, I am just a baby! He showed me how to switch it on. It changed colour by tapping on the head. What a great toy my boyfriend just gifted me! I got so happy, I started playing with it when he stopped me in the middle to remind me about dinner. We then left the room to join his friends for dinner.

After dinner, we all came back to our room. I showed Iti my new toy. We then decided to have some drinks together so we went to Mayank and Iti’s room. Oh, the fun we had for the next one hour. He made us vodka drinks, Iti got really drunk just with a single sip, I still don’t understand how and Mayank had his “no drinks” mode on. While we were drinking and laughing, he asked me to come sit on his lap. I wasn’t drunk enough to realize how much he remembered from our talks on the phone. I sat on his lap, he wrapped his one hand around me and took the glass in the other hand to offer me the drink. I melted in that very moment. Sitting so close to him, I really wanted to just kiss him all over again. But we all were sitting together and I am definitely not a PDA kind of person. Thank god he isn’t as well. We stayed there for a while, talking, laughing and clicking pictures. Then we decided to leave because Iti got really drunk and it was better for all of us to give both of them some privacy. We came back to our room and I went into the bathroom to wash my hands and face a little. I came outside, wearing only his hoodie and nothing else. The most comfortable outfit ever, I must say. He was lying on one side of the bed playing his beautiful, most romantic and calmest playlist of songs. 

“You look pretty” he said, while looking at me in his hoodie. 

“I know” I replied, smiling. 

I went close to him and lied down besides him. He wrapped his one arm around me to pull me closer. I laid my head on his chest. That was the calmest I had ever felt near someone. I wrapped my hands around him and closed my eyes. We talked. A lot. About so many things. It was then, when I looked up at him, and realized I love him so much with all my heart. I looked deep into his eyes and said nothing, wishing he would understand what all was going inside of me. I took a moment and kissed him, not very softly this time. It was passionate. We both were into it completely. He tightened his arms around me to let me know, he would never let me go. It was dark in the room, curtains closed, my new panda lamp switching lights between red, pink and blue, his playlist playing the most beautiful songs in the background and there we were, wrapped around each other, kissing. 

He paused for a moment and looked me in the eye. He gently removed my heart shaped necklace and placed it on the side table and started to kiss me again when I felt his hand going down from my neck to my waist. I took a deep breath. Again. The weakness. He took his finger softly inside of me and that was the first time I realized, Mother of God, what a beautiful life we all have. I was smiling all along and he smiled back at me. 

“Thank you” I said to him. 

“I love you” he replied. 

We had some of those very beautiful moments that night, I would always remember them in my heart. His touch. His kiss. His eyes. His lips. Him. I never imagined I would love someone that much. That I would mention someone in my prayers every day. That I would let someone come so close to my heart someday. I have always been this independent person, who never knew what it would feel like to be emotionally dependent on someone. I have always been scared to do something which would make me ask someone else for help. Its not a very good characteristic, I know, but I can’t help it. I guess I am really Monica! But it was not late enough for me to realize how perfectly he fits into my life. I hope I fit into his as well. I am not perfect, not very easy to handle, comes with a great deal of mood swings and anger. But someone just knocked on my door a few months ago and came with a patience to handle all that. How he entered into my life is a story for another day. 

“Are you okay?” he asked while he was inside of me. 

“I have never been better” I replied, grabbing his face in my hands and kissing him <3