Chapter 4

 Our Cute-Meet

Two days after my sister´s wedding, we made a plan to meet in a restaurant. One thing that I was not in favor of was to meet anywhere in our home town. It’s just weird. Everyone knows you. Anyone can spot you anywhere. It’stoo much risk to meet your boyfriend like that. I never thought I would ever plan a date in this city. But I was dying to meet him. I really don’t know why. Maybe he spelled a magic cast on me the last time we met. It was something. I was so tired from the wedding and post cleanup stuff and still was ready to dress up to go meet him. One thing about love, it grows on you. I wasn’t that crazy about him before I met him. Sure, I was very much eager to meet him the first time but this time it was different. I had this craving to see him and hug him. Like everything would sort out if I could just hug him once. Once you get a taste of someone´s hug, it´s impossible to go back. So, I made a plan.

But who are men if they can just follow your plan? Huh! Of course, he wanted to go together. On one scooty. TOGETHER. In the city. Are you kidding me? I am all up for “Let’s go for a long drive” kind of romance. Believe me. I am. But not in our own city! What if my father or my brother is going on the same path? What will happen then? I am not someone who would just listen to someone complaining about me or accusing me of something, especially not from my parents. I know, the whole dating idea is still not very well understood to our parents. Deep down, they know that everyone of us has a relationship to marry but they would never ever, in their whole life, would accept that fact. At least not in front of us. No matter how many times your mother asks you if you have a boyfriend or not. Always answer with a no. ALWAYS. 

So, he texted me to pick him up near his home. He has got some serios nerves. And look at me, saying yes to everything he´s asking for. At that point I would have said yes to anything to him. ANYTHING. Because I wanted to see him, no matter what. I picked him up, swept to the backseat, of course, and we went on our way to the restaurant. I was quite the whole time. First, I was feeling weird sitting behind him and thinking someone would definitely see me today. All I wanted was to grab him tightly from the back and lay my head on his back. But there it was, my consciousness. Can´t I just leave everything behind me when I am with him. It´s only fair. 

We went to the restaurant and I chose to sit in a quiet and personal space in the corner. It was an empty private room with only two tables. I put my jacket on the sofa. He stood in front of me, opening his arms to hug me. I hugged him. And continued to do so for a very long time. It was warm and cozy. I felt good. Relaxed. It was so good to hear his voice while hugging him. I love him already. He asked me if I was doing okay. And as usual, I denied. Because I knew what would come next. He hugged me more tightly. Ahh, I could just live in his arms forever. It´s like hugging a big teddy bear. My personal teddy bear whom I don’t have to share with anyone else. We stayed like that for a while. I didn’t want to move or say or do anything else. But then, of course the waiter came inside to disturb us and to ask for our order. I don’t want to eat anything. Go away. I screamed in my head. 

We ordered our food. I actually wanted to just eat him but unfortunately, that wasn’t on the menu. We sat close to each other. I was numb. As usual. Why does this happen, I don’t really understand. But whenever he is there with me, I become quiet. I don’t say much. Just sit next to him, his legs touching mine, his one hand around my waist and the other hand closed in a fist to mine, my head on his shoulder, his fingers brushing softly in my tangled hairs and him giving me multiple soft kisses on my cheek every now and then. Who would want anything else? This must be what love feels like. That calm mind and zero thoughts going on in your head, no worries in that exact moment, just looking at him and thinking, you must have done something good to have him here with you. 

Our food arrived on the table. And so “girlfriend” of me that I didn’t eat anything on my own. I love this. He is there to feed you French fries from his own hands and you just sit there and stare and talk to him. What a life! I so wanted to kiss him but it was an inappropriate place to do that. I don’t think there would ever be a time when he is there in front of me and I don’t think of kissing him. When did I become a person like that, no one knows! We were eating and talking when someone else came in to the room on the other table. Ugh! Can´t we have some kind of privacy at all. I WANT TO KISS HIM. We decided to change our table and went to the outer sitting space. Sat and ate some more pasta. Holding our hands together and talking about the future. How the hell did everything change in last few months, I don’t know. But it felt good. 

“Sometimes, I need some space to clear my head from exams and other things. Never think that I am ignoring you or yours calls. It´s just that I like spending some alone time whenever I´m stressed out.” He said.

“Okay!” I replied, exactly knowing the fact that I would never ever give him any space. I am not just a kind of “spacy” person. Talking, touching, hugging – that´s me. If something is bothering me, I talk. Always. And of course, I expect the same from him. Because talking is everything to me. Happy, sad, angry, stressed, just talk with someone who, you know, would understand and listen to you. I said okay because I know we will eventually do the things my way 😊. Toxic? I know. I am. Sweet kind of toxic. No? Okay, fine. Whatever!

We stood up from our seats. He was looking here and there all strangely. I knew he wanted to kiss me as well! And there I was acting all innocent, hehe! He took a chance when no one was around and kissed me. HE KISSED ME. The next best thing after his hug, is his kiss. His gentle kiss on my lips that become really strong really fast. I like that. Hug me. Kiss me. Please take me with you in your pocket. I don’t want to live alone now. I want to be with you all the fucking time.

Damn, Long distance relationships! <3